Saturday, June 20, 200--8:38 -p.m.

It dawned on me that I didn't write yesterday and almost forgot to write today. I have just been distracted with the whole Dixie fiasco. I shouldn't call it a fiasco. A poor little six month old puppy broke her elbow. But it has been quite an ordeal.

I'm trying to get past the "poor poor me" since I have to shell out so much money (a total of $2100). But, I wanted a second dog. God tried to send me some messages that I really didn't need a second dog but I didn't listen. I certainly don't think He had anything to do with Dixie breaking her leg. No way, now how. But I will start paying a little bit more attention to what God tries to tell me from now on.

But still, I love that little dog and she brings me and Sally a lot of joy. I really had no choice but to get the surgery. I had three different vets tell me that she would never have a good quality of life and that the lega would never heal properly if she did not have the surgery. What else was I going to do? Put her down? Never! This little girl is depending on me to give her a good life. I signed up to give it to her so she is my responsibility. The vet that did the surgery is working with me to make payments. I just want little Dixie to have a wonderful life. Plus, she gives me a purpose.

I had so much fun today with Gavin. He is so cute and fun. He is getting at that adorable age. We went to McDonald's and then to the school to play. He loves to swing. The two of us swing and sing. I will tell you this, my heart is full when I see that child. Thank you God.

My Twenty-Four Hours A Day book had a message about having a purposeful life. Trying to show purpose with others instead of myself. I am trying to do that. I went to the 8:30 meeting instead of the 10:00 meeting this morning. There was a man up there who I think was really a sad case. He was trying to get to Utah and wanted someone to help him find meetings there. I found a man to help him do just that and it made me feel good that I helped someone. I know it was a little thing but I still felt good about it.

I was pretty good with my money today. I spent $25 on a used sandbox for Gavin for his birthday. If I would have bought it new it would have cost me $60. I am really need to get my hair cut and colored but I can't afford $100. I found out that at Super Cuts I can get it colored for $35. I will probably wait until next week to do that though. Come Monday I have to come up with $500 to pay for Dixie. Ouch! I still have to buy a few groceries too, at least stuff for lunches.

It was a quiet day today but most of my days are anymore. But that's okay. I'm not drinking. And I'm praying and really believing in God.

See you tomorrow.