Saturday, June 13, 2009 -- 6:55 p.m.

A very lazy day today. I did go to a Saturday morning meeting which was good. The Saturday meetings are always good. There some people in there whom I really like. A couple of the women I would really like to have as my sponsor but Debbie lives out of town and Lauri E. already has quite a few sponsees. I think I am going to be okay with Lori H. One thing though that I am praying about is that Debbie did call me today and left me a message that perhaps we can get together sometime soon. I called back and left a message that yes I would like to get together. I almost said something in my message to the fact that I was going to work with someone else but chickened out. I should probably tell her face to face or at least talk to her over the phone about it instead of leaving a message. I think she will be fine and frankly I am not going to worry about it. It's all about me and I want to try and different sponsor. I think meeting and talking more about the steps and doing more book study is going to be good for me. I am just going to keep praying about it and listen for God's answer.

As a matter of fact that was the topic today. How you found your God and Higher Power. I told them in the meeting I just started listening to Him. I have always talked to Him but have never really listened to Him. When I had my last drink on February 15, 2009 I finally started listening. I pray that I keep listening.

One of the girls at AA told me about an online AA meeting group. I found it on the web and it looks interesting. You can go to meetings online. I sat in on one for a little while but it seemed a bit slow. I'm going to try another later tonight. I am going to the 8:00 meeting at Johnson County tonight also. There is a gal named Carol who I really like up there. She is funny and we have some laughs. She is also a drug addict and has been fighting her addictions for 20 years or so. Wow. I'm not sure I would be here if I was drinking and drugging for those many years. The last few years have taken their toll on me anyway.

I did good today and did not go out and spend any unnecessary money. I got gas and went to the grocery store. I almost went and got a pedicure and I still might but I am going to wait until tomorrow after I get an oil change which is a higher priority. I need to pay Bill back $86.00. I did manage to not have to get into savings to make it through the pay period but I also did not put any money into savings. I am putting $50 in this month. I just need to concentrate on paying off some bills. There is nothing that I need. I do need to get Sally her shots but I've waited on getting shots for my dogs before and I may have to wait until next month. I've got a Visa bill that I need to call and see if I can get a payment plan on. My minimum payment is now $175.00. Ouch! I need to get that down and fast. Those credit cards can kill you.

Well I'm going to start getting ready for the 8:00 meeting. It's nice to have somewhere to go and have some coffee and conversation. I have enjoyed my day today and have not felt sad or down at all. So far this journal has been so different compared to my other journals.

Grateful today for:
GOD
PRAYER
WAKING UP
STILL EMPLOYED
FAMILY
HEALTH
AA FELLOWSHIP

Many blessings. Thank you God.